Depressed

Last Saturday was the day from hell. Sort of I went to work with puffy eyes

I spoked to my my supervisor and I  spent the rest of the conversation defending myself and the choices I've made in my job. I often say I have no regrets, but I suppose in  the end I do.  I never thought I'd say these words, but I am so tired of having to explain myself and I am so tired of being told.

 I'm trying to stay positive, but I feel like crying all day.

I felt very empty going out of my office and  I suddenly missed my friends terribly.

Now, Everything was getting to me. I'm getting ready for the depression, I'll feel when its finally over, but I really didn't feel emotional  anymore when I got home. It was like it had already ended for me.

But I know I'm gonna feel something later, l just don't know when that's gonna be.

Right now, there are no words to describe the weariness I feel today. I have not slept well in days, and even when I do, there is no comfort

What is happening to me?

Inside my head there is never silence. I feel at any moment that I could break. I want to cry for all the sadness in the world, but mostly my own.


I know this depression will past and I'll get by


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 I'm going down a gentle slope with an empty suitcase.

When I look back, I see a shiny red roof in the distance.

I'm leaving this house on the hill today.

I've always done it like this

and I will continue to do so.

I look my best on windy mornings.

I'm sure I can catch a good head wind.

I gain everything

and I lose everything.

Everything is slipping through my fingers,

but my heart is still standing here,

and once again, I will start walking.

I gain everything

and I lose everything.

When I'm left with a blank page,

the fire of hope in my heart is always bright.

Why? Raising a tough question, the day an important dream had been broken.

I saw a scene never seen over the wall.

I was never conceited.

Birds sleep now, resting their wings

to travel tomorrow morning. Lightly flying by they're so far away

Even people again

can be happy.

People told me goodbye now.

The new town, I think

surely, believe myself to meet again.

Remembering how now, whether it is or was not right,

walking under the sun, waving.

Father

Once there was boy. His father was a very busy man. One day he asked his father who came home late in the night as usual, “Dad, how much money do you make in one hour?” The father said, “It is none of your business. But for your knowledge I make 100.00 dollars every hour.”

The boy then asked, “Dad can you lend me 99 Dollars.” The father got wild and said, “If the only reason you wanted to know how much money I make is just so you can borrow some to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about it, why you're being so selfish. I work long, hard hours everyday and I don't have time for such childish games."

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.” After sometime the father went to his son’s bedroom and gave 99 dollars to his son and asked why he needed the money. The little boy took out one dollar kept under his pillow and replied, “Because I can’t be lucky 99 more times to find dollars lying on the road. Here is your 100 dollars, dad. Can I buy an hour of your time?”

The father cried then hugged his son and he said sorry



source: http://motivating-story.blogspot.com/2008/08/motivating-moral-story-father-and-son.html

BFF

I know that there are those that don't believe that online or Internet friendships are real, that true friendships require a degree of personal interaction.

Personally,  I am someone who has a hard time interacting with and connecting with people, sometimes it's easier for me to develop relationships with people online, where my usual nervousness and awkwardness is not expressed or conveyed as it would be in person.

It was never my intention to find friends online. And I basically just wanted to vent some things and see if anyone else shared the same feelings and experiences as myself.

I  made a few temporary friends online. But one day, I made a friend and we really did like each other. We met in a forum and we talked everyday online.

Just because someone cant see you, you feel a little braver, a little more free and find yourself telling a total stranger your deepest darkest secrets. And because of  that the person is not so much a stranger anymore.

 Oh yeah, There is one thing to be said about us, we were really tight, you know, as friends.


We talk about stuff and things. He gives me advice, I give him a few tips and he gives me a few tips.

We really have a give-and-take relationship.

We would usually talk about our ex-girlfriends, sex, gym, work etc.


During our conversation, he asked me a question, which really surprised me:

BFF:  It's possible for you to fall in love with a guy?

Milch: ...................... Silence....

BFF: Answer the question please :)

Milch:  I'm hoping that you will get  a sex change in the future, so that you can be my girlfriend

BFF: [Offline]



I've had girlfriends, but nothing is as good as him, Am I falling for him? I have to admit masaya ako pagnagchachat kami,. And I was really upset when he signed out. It's not like him to signed out kasi usually nagpapaalam siya.

Damn! Does he like me? But I have to admit I like him too.

 Is this romantic love or is it just a bromance between us? Oh my God!! Am I turning gay now? Or do I see him as an older brother too me. Kasi di naman kami close ng kuya ko.


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a  Bromance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!

If ever decided to go to the other side, Then my family will disown me at tatanggalan pa ako ng mana.

And besides I am still attracted to women.

After a few weeks we began chatting again  and he never asked me the question again...

 We have been good friends for almost 5 years now but  we don't know each other in real life.

We  haven't  seen each others  face.

He is someone who always lends and ear and a shoulder, even during those times when  he needs them just as much. This person who is a true flesh and blood friend even though I have never met them in the flesh. But it doesn't matter. He is my best friend nonetheless, and I thank him for that friendship.

The reason why we haven't met, is because he works abroad. But he promised to see me if he ever visits the Philippines in the future.

 Well at least I have someone in mind na magiging best man ko if ever I get married coz his single too

At the Bar

I went with the guys from the office to this bar.

As usual I was too early at kailangan ko pa hintayin ang mga kasamahan ko. Umupo ako malapit sa may bartender tapos may isang girl nakatabi ko. Nagkatinginan kami pero  walang nagsalita sa amin.  Then after a few minutes she looked at me again and  she left a note at the table.

Actually this is not the first time because, I do have some experience with women, who have the hots for me.

Ever since my college days, I have been pursued by women set on luring me into their beds.

I have nothing against aggressive women. Because a girl who makes the first move is usually confident and not afraid of taking risks. And  I like that.

But now,  I'm hesitant to call or text this stranger, I mean  I don't know her  personally, We didn't talk, What does she want from me? sex? money? love? or baka nanghihingi ng load sa phone? Hmmmmmm

Mother's Day

Question:

Ano ang pagkakaiba ng isang nanay sa isang tatay?


Answer:

Bigyan mo ng pera ang isang tatay, ano gagawin niya sa pera?


1) Gagastusin ang pera kasama ang kanyang barkada at magiinuman


Bigyan mo ng pera ang isang nanay, ano gagawin niya sa pera?

2) Aayain ang mga anak niya kumain sa  restaurant

Motherhood is all about loving, sharing, sacrificing, and struggling.

"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold,
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be. 


                                                                HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!!

The Versatile Blogger Award

I was so thrilled and surprised to receive  The Versatile Blogger Award from
 Xian Garvida 


-http://xiangarvida.blogspot.com/
-http://xiangarvidaphotography.blogspot.com/



Thank You to Xian Garvida  for such an important recognition!!


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The rules of this award are the following:

1. Thank the blogger who gave you the award. Don't forget to link his/her blog.
2. Post 7 random things about you.
3. Give the award to 15 other bloggers you love and let them know you gave them this award.

Seven (7) Random Things About Myself

1) I'm an Otaku who loves cartoons and japanese anime.

2) I love to watch foreign films and I also love to watch Korean and Japanese dramas/soap

3)  I'm not at all athletic. Lifting weights is the only thing I've managed to stick with for any period of time.

4) I'm a gym rat, I love working out in the gym

5) Though I am shy when meeting new people, after an hour or so of talking with them, I get very comfortable as if I had known them for years. Same for people I haven't seen in a while.

6) I'm a homebuddy, I like staying at home and unwinding. I don't really like spending money on drinking, or spending time in bars all night. I feel its a waste of time, expensive and there's a lot of things I'd rather be doing by myself.  

It's not that I  have a problem going out and socializing, it's that I don't want to. I just simply don't want to.

 I enjoy being at home much more and I have a hard time making myself go out and hang out, unless I happen to be in the mood to. So it's not that I want to but can't, its that I just don't have any interest in it.

I think that's the reason why I call myself the "Lone Wolf"

7) My great grandfather was German that's the reason why I used the name "Milch"

P.S. My great grandfather is not a Nazi because  he lived in the Philippines and married a Filipina. In short, he was not in Germany during World War 2.

And to follow the lead of those who have done this before me, I am giving "THE VERSATILE BLOGGER" award to the following:

1)  In Search Of
http://thetruthinlife.blogspot.com/


2) Fox in adventure
http://foxinadventure.blogspot.com/

3) The Last Innocent Man
http://thelastinnocentman.blogspot.com/

4)  I am Super Leah
http://www.iamsuperleah.com/


5) This is Who I am..
http://projectrusell.blogspot.com/


6) AXL Powerhouse Production Inc.
http://www.axlppi.com/


7) Zai Moonchild
http://simplycomplicatedzai.blogspot.com/


8) I'm not so Conio
http://imsonotconio.blogspot.com/



9) Pluripotent Nurse
http://pluripotentnurse.blogspot.com/

10) Cubao sa ilalim
http://cubao-ilalim.blogspot.com/

 11) IamCbryanmac
http://www.cbryanmac.com/


12) Living the Expectations
http://livingtheexpectations.blogspot.com/


13) Pluma ni Jepoy
http://jepoytabachoy.blogspot.com/


14) Morning and Afternoon Breaks

http://ampmcoffeebreaks.blogspot.com/


15) Kwarto Khanto
http://khantotantra.blogspot.com

20 SEXY Questions

 

1) What is sexy for you?

Sexiness is the way a person carry themselves, sexy is all about attitude when you have it,  you carry it well. And the most important of all,  is someone who  is confident and someone who knows what they want and could care how society depicts them
 

2) When do you feel sexy?

When someone cals me sexy lol!

3) What part of your body would you consider sexiest?

Chest

4) What part of a woman's body you find sexy

Boobs, ass and  women who have small waist to hip ratio

5) When did you lose your innocence? 

 I'm a late bloomer. I lost my innocence when I was in my 20's already


6) To a younger woman, an older woman or a woman your age?

Woman near to my age or someone older than me

7) Sexiest book?

I’m not into books

8) Sexiest movie?

Y Tu Mama Tambien (2001) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Y_Tu_Mam%C3%A1_Tambi%C3%A9n

9) Sexiest musical instrument?

Saxophone

10) Sexiest song?

I'm to sexy by Right Said Fred –joke

11) Sexiest TV show?

Baywatch

12) Sexiest food?

Whipped cream

13) Sexiest time of day?

Early morning, because, every morning when i wake up i see my thing standing erect creating a little pyramid in the blanket

14) Sexiest part of the house?

Room

15) Sexiest animal?

 Cats

16) Boxers, briefs

Both, speaking of briefs I don't wear full rise or classic briefs coz they look like grandpa's undies

17) Sexiest fantasy?

Too many to mention

18) Sexiest thing you have ever done to yourself?

Hmmmm secret

 
19) What do you think you look sexiest in?


Wearing   sando or wearing swim trunks  siguro lol!

20) Sexiest thing you have ever done to or with someone?

Joining someone in the shower, It's not just about being naked and wet, either. Taking the time to soap each other down is simultaneously erotic and intimate, allowing you to enjoy the sensual sensations while also taking the time to pay attention to one another